Talking

I went to see someone today with my sisters and we talked about things that have been happening in my life and how it is effecting all of our lives. It seems I'm still very good at hurting people. I think that is all I'm good at. I mean look at my track record. Its not very good. I guess its just who I am. And you know what I don't even want to change it. If its who I am then I'm going to flaunt it.

Later people

Dog Sitting

Just saying it reminds me that i no longer have a dog to call my own. Yes i am watching a dog for the week but that doesn't make her my dog. This dog is small and round. My dog was big and strong and everything i needed. I find my self moving boyfriend to boyfriend looking for some one who can be that person for me but what i think i really need is a new dog who can be my friend. I am try so hard to put my doggy in the past but she was the only one i could really talk to. I mean she was the first person to know about my depression, first one to knew i cut, first one to hear me cry, first one to be there for me. I really want to bring her back but i know that she is safe and sound where every she is. And i know just like the other people i have lost is always watching me. I guess i should try to talk about what i wanted to anyway.

The Dog i am watching is very lazies i mean she sleeps like all day and then even at night as well how does she do it. I think its cuz of her age, but then again i don't even know how old she is. Oh well.

Later people.

Summer

Hello,

I am writing again. I find myself in a weird mood. I don't know how I feel. I mean I'm happy with the guy I am with but at the same time I really like this other guy and I don't know what I want. We both live far away so we wouldn't be able to see each other a lot which wouldn't be to bad but I do like to cuddle and have dates or just go out and hang with friends. I guess I'm stuck where I am.

Later people.

What Am I To Do?

Hello people hell I don't even know if anyone is still reading so i don't really give.

Well anyway I have a little problem. I'm dating a guy but am totally crushing on my friend from Winnipeg. I mean he is everything I am looking for in a guy. He is funny, sweet, caring, loving life, he is always himself, and so much more that I can't even put it into words. I think he might be the one but I'm scared cuz I don't know how i would handle a long distance relationship. I am hoping for some feed back but you know maybe just writing about it will help.

Until Next Time People

Little Sisters

I don't know if anyone will read this but i don't really care. My little sister has been really pushing my buttons as of lately. I think she might be doing it because she is wanting to see how far she can push me before i snap at her. I also think that she just likes to make me mad. Well good luck to her cuz I'm going to be a b***** if she keeps it up.

Later people

It feels like yesterday.....

Hello people,

Can you feel it in the air? Its almost summer time and now i feel that i must look back on my year a little. Like how it feels like yesterday that i was in gr 9 coming here for the first time and being late because of traffic. Good times. Now its the end of my gr 12 year and i feel like i don't know where the time went. I had so much fun these past couple years. I'm so Glad that i got to meet the people i did and keep the old friends i love. Its been a fun 4 years guy hope to keep in touch with all of you and I'm going to miss you like mad.

So long from the blogger who is in a lot of  pain.

A life to be rich or fall in love?

hello everyone who happens to read this.

Now the choice is to fall in love or be rich? The thing is what if you can have both i mean most rich people are in love with there money so i see no down side to being both.

Ya that's all cuz i don't want to write.

later

What the heck am I doing up?

Okay as you can see i have made my own topic and that is because of a stupid hour time change between Chicago and here. And it doesn't help that a girl at my job quit and a guy got sick so I'm the only person besides my bosses that can do cash so I'm working all week long..... Fun. I mean the money is good but now I'm not going to catch up on my sleep until Friday. Which really sucks. I guess it just means I will have to nap during spare and maybe math..... Hmmmm...... Could i get away with that? Ya I could. So I must be leaving you for I need to finish my drama project.

Laattteeeerrrrr

What I plan to do next year?

Well my Little followers, yes Karina I mean you.

My plans for next year include coming back to this place. I mean who wouldn't want to come back for a Fifth year. Well its not going to be all fun and games for me. I am taking three Science class and then some fun classes like drama, art, and gym. All three of those ones should be fun but all together it should be a fun year. I hope. I am a little sad to see a lot of my friends leaving to go to College and work but thats what they need to do.

 I can't wait for a time that i get to drive to school almost everyday. I mean my sister doesn't need the car every day and she did say she wanted to get a new one. Now to learn how to drive stander. This could take a lot of work. Oh well, that is life, but its impornt to remember all work and no play can lead to bad things and all play and no work goes the same way. Nate and Karina I am talking to both of you this time. 

But remember that you can have fun and work at the same time. And good lucky to the both of you.  The school is going to really quiet with out you both. And I will miss you lots and lots and lots and lots and lots and lots. 

A road Trip...... Good or Bad????

A road trip. Something that my family seems to do a lot of. My favourite trip that i went on this past summer. My family, my Boyfriend (at the time) and i went up to a provincial park called Killbear. It was a long 4 hours to get their, but a lot of fun. We decided to take two cars up because of how many people and dog that were coming with us. In my moms black car was my mom, younger sister and i. And in my dads van was my dad ad my boyfriend.

With the two cars packed full we headed out to the 401. We had a long trip in front of us. Once on the highway we really got moving.

After being on the 401 for about an hour we headed off north on the 400 and as soon as we got to a nice speed I fell asleep for a good two hours. With the only way of talking thought the cars being texting between my boyfriend and i. Once i woke up we all (as in the girls) that it was time to stop and get a little something to eat. So we pulled off the 400 and stopped at a small subway that was in the middle of no where. It was a little funny. So with my mom, sister, boyfriend and i went in to order our subs while my dad stayed out side with my dog Zoe. She was a little on edge because we had stopped and she didn't know where we were.

After a nice light lunch we all hoped back into our cars and got going again.

As we continued down the highway we started to see little stone figures on both sides of the road. It was really cool to see that people had stopped and had taken the time to do something that will have a lot of meaning to them every time they drive by. It was also really cool to see all the stone that they had to go thought to get the highway to get all the way down to Toronto. And it also really showed how far we were from the place's i new.

Once at the camp ground we up packed and set up. After that we all went down the hill to the lake that was right their. We had a great little swim and had a lot of fun over the next week that we were their. From walks to drives to playing cards with the family. All we had to do was go at our own pace which means fun in the sun.

When Something Went Wrong.....

Hheeellllooooo Followers,

Okay so a trip that went wrong for me was when i was really young like 7 or 8. So i was at the mall with my family and my dad wanted to look in the book store and my mom need to get a card so my dad went into the book store and my mom went to get the card. Well my older sister and i went with my dad and my younger sister went with my mom. Well after a couple minutes of being in the book store i decided to go and find my mom so letting go of my dads hand i walked away. Once i was out of the store i didn't know where my mom was. So i walked a little away from the book store. After a couple of seconds i couldn't see around the people in the mall i was lost. As i turn around looking for the book store i felt someone come up behind me and pick me up. I screamed at the top of my lungs, only to be turned around to have it be my dad who had been just as scared when he found out i wasn't with him anymore. That was the last time i walked away from my parents when in the mall.

Loon Boy



Mother and Baby Loon



Loon Boy. Now you may think that this is a weird blog but its not really. Think about it the spring is coming and that means the loons are returning and the sun is warming and the world is bright. Also Loon Boy is a play I am reading in my  drama class it is a really kinda cool play about a kid who is in foster care and how the lady who is looking after him before he goes to a group home likes loons.

The loon is one of Canada's birds that seem to be just as happy in their world as we do in ours.

Think about it your mother and father are always their for you and it is the same with this beautiful bird.

A era I would want to be.....

Well I think that the future would be the best. I mean I could come back to my time with a hold bunch of things that would make our life easier and that would be really nice. I mean maybe they have robots. Who knows??

Doesn't he just look cool. I guess I have been watching one too many Sci-Fi movies. Anyway the future is the way to go I mean it not just that we don't have all of this tech back then but also we wouldn't be able to say anything about the future to them but if we were talking about the past people wouldn't really think to much of it.

My near death experience

Today I went to the mall on fairveiw road. Nothing weird should happen right? Wrong I was in te turn lane so I could go to the mall and what do I see this little white car try's to run into me I mean come on I'm in a big red van you have to be able to see me. Well u guess this guy didn't well he almost hit me and my little sister and her friend. I was so mad that this guy didnt see me and I was also a little scared because this was the first time I had driven to the mall and to have such a bad time getting thee I almost don't want to go back, but I am tomorrow because my ring came in at peoples. So that is my near death experience

Spprrriiiiiinnnnnggggggg

It is almost spring. The tell-tell sign for me that spring is here is the fact that my cats like to go out and be out side and not come back in for a while. I think that it is funny that in the winter they go out but come right back in after they see the snow. It is really funny when you see they little foot prints in the snow.

Look they are so small and cute.

I am not going to write a post on the schools ******* politics. I  think that they are stupid and that in the end only the popular kids win. So you know what who needs it. I can live a very happy life with out the school ******* politics.

Okay on a happier note i can't wait until the week of the 28th my parents are going to the States for 8 days and its just going to be me and my sisters at home. Sweet. It also means i get the van for 8 days. Party.

I mean yes i will miss them but it lets me show then that i can be trusted at home with my sisters with out having someone checking in on us.

Pitter Patter

This has nothing to do with the idea Feick came up with. So read and tell me what you think:

I hear the rain piter pattering on the window,
Pitter Patter
I look to the window as the pitter pattering gets louder,
PIttter PAtter
It seems to put a clam feeling though my body,
PITter PATter
It grows louder as if it was someone beating on a drum,
PITTer PATTer
The clam is washed away as the strom grows,
PITTEr PATTEr
I hear the boom of the thunder and see the flash of the lighting,
PITTER PATTER
And now the strom is dieing like all must do one day,
pitter patter,
pitter patter,,
pitter patter.... until another day.

I wrote this not to long ago and would love to know what you guys and girls think of it.

Poems....

A BEST FRIEND
A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.

- Renee Duvall
Friendship is one of the strongest things in the world. You sometimes find the best friends in people you never would have guessed and sometimes you see people for who they really are. It is always nice to see friendships thought the school but in one case or another you find friends who aren't there anymore. The truth of the matter is that we all grow up. We can't stay friends with childhood friends because they have changed or maybe you have changed.

The poem that i have above helps me remember who my friends are who has been their though it all, but the truth is none of them have been their though it all. They haven't known me my whole life, but they do their best to help me with the time that we have been friends. You know when you move schools and you don't know anyone that's how it feels when you start to move out of your friend group and in to a new one. You will never be the same again but that doesn't mean that they're wont be a time or two that you go to the friend group and still have that friendship you had before you moved a little. Now go out there and meet someone new. It could be a person in a class that you don't have any friends in or maybe a person in the hall or cafe. Who knows? Just find it in yourself to try and make a new friend this year and see where they take you.

Appreciation Day? For an Animal?

Helloooooo................people.

It is lovely to talk to you again. Now to get to the topic at hand and that topic is that some animals need a day to be appreciated. Now my lovely lovely teacher has said that squirrels need a day to be apprecited but i think that something about ten times better needs a day and that my friends is squids. Now i know what you are thinking.

They aren't the cutest thing in the world, but they have the coolest name.

 I mean you can use the word squid when you can't get a word out like my sisters and I do. Or you could use it as a inside joke between your friends and you.

There are so many things that you can do with the world Squid and you know that some Squids can be really cute. So i think they need a day so people can start to understand what they are and how they help the world they live in.

I mean think about it. When they leave the water they come in to our world and they have no idea of what is happening to them, but when we go into their world we seem to only be good at recking it.

We need to start saying no to things like going place that hurt the homes of other things on our world because if we don't then the world is going to end a whole lot sooner.

I will leave you on that dark note........

Graffiti Art or Not???

Well hello there.

I have a question for you is graffiti art or not? I feel that Graffiti is an Art. It can be such a joy to see but in some cases it is an atrocity. Looking at some of these prices of art some one puts so much time and energy. 

Looking at these pictures you can see the time that has gone into these prices of art. The colour it speaks for its self. With all the colour your eye is taken around the image you cant stop from looking at the whole thing and not just on little part of it.

The picture on the right what so you see in it?? I see a house with a design of its own. I see colour that would make anyone turn there head and look at. I see a house that was in need of some paint and was given a make over that ever one can look at and like.

The word's in may of these price of art are unreadable.

But they leave a impression on you that nothing else could ever do. It is a art that very little of people know how to do but the people who do know do it in such a way that you have to stop and look.

Now Follower, What do you think Art or Not? But don't just look at it with a closed heart or eyes. Open your eyes and heart to the way of life that is art. Let your dreams leap off a page. Let your friends wonder at what it is. Let your heart open doors you didn't know where they're. Let it be art. Let it be a thing that only you can know the meaning to and anyone can have there own.

Whaddaya Think?

What do I think???

That is a sentence that may people take for granted what do I think? Well i think that this class has opened up me to others opinions of my writing. I also think that the things we have done in class like the writing prompt has help me put ideas on to paper. I always felt that if i kept an idea to my self it could grow in my head and it does but i could never put it on paper after i made this story up. I have also found that if I'm sharing my story's. I know that people will like them and make some comments to help me make them better. I find that even if i didn't get the feed back the way i wanted it to come i still get it and it has helped me a lot with my writing. I have run out of things to say that this class has helped me with. I have come to realize that i have no idea what i want to do anymore. I love writing and what it can do for your soul or mind or whatever you feel that it is. The crossroads of life seem to be in front of me again. Now which way to turn. I guess this blog has the best tittle yet seeing as how deep in thought i am. Now the only thing i can do is think.

What do you Think?  

Saving

Hello Followers,

Today i am going to talk to you about how saving is very important. Well you see i was doing a project for a class and i went to save and then close the program but when i went looking for said saved thing i could not find it. It had not been saved like i thought. So this is to all you who think that its never going to happen to you always make sure that you can find your project before you close it cuz then you wont end up like me with no project so you have to do it all over again.

Later Followers 

Random

I am back......... Well hello again people who i call followers.

It is the second day back at school and i seem to find myself liking how the New Year has started. I mean i got a good holiday with family and i guess second family. I go some cool things for Christmas and i got sick before new years which really kind of sucked. But i had fun when i wasn't sick. I am also kind glad to be back at school. I started to run out of things to do at home that were fun that wasn't sleeping, eating or playing video games. You can only do that for so long. I also was really happy when my parents let me stay over at my boyfriends house for a night over the break and i was also really happy that they let him stay at our house for like 5 days. it was really nice to be able to spend that time with him and my family.

Well i think i am done for now i might right again later but i will have to wait and see where y mind takes me.

So......until i think of something else to write.....Later Followers